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where most of my time will be devoted. (this one being left for quirky side notes and silly nonsensical stories.)
my new blog is www.seaninthecity.uber.com
so check it out, and i will begin writing on july tenth! whoo.
anyways its time to celebrate the life i have right now. the joyousness and the doubt. the luck and the awesomeness. it all starts july first.
celebrating the time i have here, or wherever has become a common goal for me. rocking out and bringing my celebutant status of an a game everywhere i go. (im always ready to sign autographs lol) life has become all about today, which leaves no stone unturned, and no day left behind ( and im a lot more thorough than the bush administration)
so yeah. cant wait to talk to you guys again. mucho mucho love
i have about ten seconds to write this, but i know if i dont i wont ever remember this moment again. i miss these kinds of days, when things happen, and life changes, and everything becomes a self narrated autobiography for a little while.
but i'll get to it. i have a long long letter i could write to the people i know and adore, but i think that the 18 and a half pages and ten hours of laughter and tears can be summed up into one single sentence, these eleven words that spell out a future:
even though there is no infinity,forever will always be now.
i have two weeks of high school left. and things are weirder than ever. everyone is slowly shifting to a whole new view. they all have things to say about the way we were, like a eulogy of something that hasnt died yet. i cant say much because right now im the same way. things are coming to a screeching halt, and everything is about to change. all the smiles i see each day are slowly leaving, and the faces i knew these four years are going away. they become almost memories as i walk the hall. two weeks and things are falling apart.
this will be my last blog post until june 8th, and then everything else begins again. the new season of my life begins.
today is kind of a blah day, just a day for focusing on the now, or at least what i have left of the now.
three weeks of the first quarter of my life left, and the future is almost here. i like to think of it as season one is finally ending.
season one is the season where the characters are first established, and the storyline is concieved. the main character struggles to find the norm, and things are becoming interesting. a centralized theme is established, but there is room for improvment in the future.
season two is full of romance and mystery, love and deciet. things become different for the characters, their world is turned upside down and filled with hope and difference. a life for the better.
so here's to season two, romance and second chances. :)
[ i'm really tired of being third or like seventh to everyone, i really wish there was one person i could be first for, somedayy... somedayy...]
soon i'll be moving out of the place the gays forgot, into the place that gays love hardcoree... so yeah. represnt. then i'll find someone, and fall in love. again.
lets let the future be as magnificent as the past.
this morning me and a teacher were discussing the tragedy of her high school years. she said that there were eight deaths and seven of them were suicides. almost all of those who had commited suicide had hung themselves. in order for them to have an open casket funeral, they had to wear turtlenecks, regardles of the weather. that creates an awkward emotion. you know why the turtleneck is there, and you know whats underneath it. it almost makes it even more painful than seeing the flesh beneath it. why hide the obvious, when its, well, obvious. its something i'll never know.
i have been super stressed out lately, and i really need to find some release. the pessimism is supremely taking over, and i hate it with a passion. ( ironic) I just kinda want to chill out about everything, and just lazily fail all my classes and have a future of flipping burgers at the burger king down the street. it takes a lot of work to live a life worth living, and it takes a whole lot of walking.
i cant help but to think how important this time is to my life. im just trying to soak it all in, and get everything i can before its all gone. but its really hard to see whats on the side of a road you're going ninety on, really really hard.
today is a new day, again. and after this weekend, its really hard to get back on my feet. i had a insane weekend, and i cant believe its over, but it is. i have to say this was the best weekend of my life. i totally loved everything that happened, hardcore. but, as with all great things, they have to come to an end. but with that end starts a whole new adventure, and adventure know as the week of april 28th. lets do it all over again homedoggs.
well thats about it, imma head out. time for the schoolins.
have an awesome week. lets celebrate it together :)
