Kaaatrina

I knew it. I knew it. I knew it. I knew he was going to be upset and complain about me talking to Dexxter. I knew it. What I didn't know is that he would not answer my call and then not call me back. Boo. What a jerk move. But then again, I have had my fair share of jerk moves. And I made one in the early morning. God! Why am I such an idiot? I tried apologizing to him and told him I missed him and everything, but he just came down on me. He told me he missed me too but with pity. And he said it as if I told him some kind of bullshit. Grrrr. But he does have a reason. I was a jerk, I barely talked to him, basically I kind of didn't talk to him all. I basically haven't talked to him in about 2 days. I tried calling him, but he never called me back. When I talked to him before I left, he said that he was going home. Then about a couple hours after that, he still wasnt home. I wonder where he is. I tried calling him again. No answer. I think he doesn't want to talk to me. I can understand that but if he gets so mad when I don't talk to him, I would think that he would be happy when I can|do talk to him. I know it is Spring Break and all, and I should have all this free time to talk to him, but I don't. It's break, and I have people to spend time with, that I usually don't get to because school gets in the way. And, I spend time with him, and talk on the phone with him all day everyday. Or at least as much as I can. I have homework and projects, and papers to do! I think they are more important to my future. Sorry to him, but if I am going to have a future period, my school work comes first. Well it's break, and I am at my dad's house, and I got my phone taken away today. So, I have no phone to talk on. So I have no time and no phone to speak to him. |:
How unfortunate. What a way to start my Spring Break. Woot. Great great. Omg, its 2:44 and I still haven't gotten a call back from him. Great. What the hell. I guess I deserve it. I did call him yesterday either. Wow pay back, real mature. But I wasn't being real mature either. I tried to be, but it always never works.

I wish I could.
I really wish I could have it back,
Or even have any of it at all.

Out.

wishing