Hi, My name is Ivy Howell. I love to sing it is the thing I do from the time my toes hit the floor in the morning until I place them back in the bed at night. I am 29 years old so I have basically been chasing after this dream most of my life. I have a desire to sing so bad!!!!!! When I was younger many people told me that I am supposed to sing and I have a call on my life. I know without a shadow of a doubt that I was put on this earth to sing. right now I have been doing cover songs on youtube trying to find what I am supposed to sing because at the moment I am unsure which direction I should take. I Know my life is in the masters hands but people just don't understand what words can do to you. They have no remorse when all you do is give give give!!!!! Nobody has to tell me I will make it or a piece of paper won't make me confident in that. I know I will make it because he proves that to me every single day when he put s a song in my heart. Melodies just flow out of me and i don't write them down or record them all the time. Guess I should start doing that. This is going to be my year that my music that he imparts to me in our quiet times together become real. They that wait on the Lord shall renew their strength they shall mount up on wings as eagles. They shall run and not get weary they shall walk and not faint they shall fly. I feel like that eagle right about now getting ready to spread my wings and take flight. I will run and not get weary I shall walk and not faint!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I have been cont.... on this journey with God with my music. He is still instilling in me songs of the heart. this past week was kinda rough don't want to go into the details but the trials I have been enduring and making it through with the songs he puts on my heart. He Is Worthy to be praised through every trial and every situation.
This morning i went back to sleep after the kiddies went to school. I was Laying there sleeping and dreaming about me being on a mountain and I was so happy. The next thing i know is that i began to sing this song by Crystal Lewis, I was walking down a street just singing away like a little happy child. Beauty for ashes, Strength for fear, gladness for mourning peace for despair. Isaiah 61:3 is the refrence from the bilble. I know that God is giving me beauty for ashes and he is making himself known to me and answer my prayer to be in his presence and in his will. Today he is promising me, "Beauty for Ashes. I am in the process of writing a song called walking down a road. Maybe I just walked down that road in that dream and God heard what I was saying about finding his peace and way again.
I don't know what happened to me I had an experience with God that i can't explain. Lately I have felt so peaceful in my heart as well as my spirit. People are talking a lot about heaven and hell lately. I have been thinking about it from the point of view of a friend of God. Why would you want to disappoint him and say you don't believe in him. He is real and he wants more than anything for you to believe in him. I know something happened to me because my actions are changing. My desires are changing. And my heart is changing!!!!!! I was going down a road where I wanted to sing and become famous, but he stopped me in the process. I kept hearing him in my heart saying come unto me and I will bless you beyond measure. I have always said that like in psalms 91 God has been carrying me. I am writing songs that he gives me. There is nothing like singing in his prescence and making melodies in my heart to him. When I am singing praise unto to him alone I feel like a little kid again that is flying through the air the songs that God gives me makes me feel like I am actually flying. The weight of my burden's are lifted the heaviness of heart has to go. All the hurt and pains from the past have to go. I feel like I am in the place of the most high and he liftts me up when I need the strength. He is my refuge and my fortress. My God who puts me under the shelter of his wings in the secret place. And he promises with long life will I satisfy you and show you and show you my salvation. That is so reassuring and very refreshing to me. So what happened I don't know but something happened!!!!!!!!!!!!
I put my passion and everything into the things I recorded. My music player never did work and I tried and tried to make it work. I feel like a joke no one cares how bad I want to sing. I have been singing since I was 5 years old. Some people may have listened to my music. But I doubt seriously that the judges did.I am about fed up this has just fueled me to work harder and put everything into the stuff i am getting ready to create. I am so glad that God is in control of everything. My music is inspired by him God. I hear melodies and he gives me the words they flow right out naturally. A long time ago I was told that I would sing and God was going to bless me. I am going to do just that, I will not enter anymore contest such as this one because I already know what the outcome will be. I am starting to think this whole vote for me thing is unfair. Some people and I am not referring to this contest alone. But a lot of people on contest like this can't sing a lick and due to friend's and family pumping ego's and what not these people get votes in the 1000's. Yes I say it's unfair because it is. A executive or record Label in my opinion should sign or want to sign someone because of their talent and not how many votes you get. Thats even with me if people felt like my music didn't
sound good they shouldn't have voted me int o the top 100 where the judges I believe completely overlooked certain people or Genre's. I am down sad feel like a failure. Some people had guest jugdes on their pages giving them hints that they were being looked at and it also let other's not you kinda don't have a prayer in this thing. So thats the way I feel. I looked and listened to the stuff I voted for. And when I commented on the ybtt blog, that is my real personality and nature. when I was saying Happy Easter and all the other things on the comment section that was the real Ivy Howell. That was the complete Genuine part of me. And now i feel like a hopeless singer-songwriter thanks ybtt. Thanks alot for this contest. It was a real joy to find out people probably take my singing as a joke.
God I am so Glad that you are alive and living in me. You have given me a purpose on this earth I was created to praise and worship you. The sound of my voice was intricately created and ordained by you Lord. You gave me an anointing and no thing, person entity or diabolical force will stop what you planned for me from my mother's womb. Romans 8: 28. I will walk in my Destiny!!!!!!
