I'm back and stress free from final assessments! So now that all my work was handed up, shitty quality.. I have like 2 months off. What's there to do now folks?
Endeavoring an end with two straight lines across my broken canvas. Simple texture of red ink dripping slowly till it dries. Patient as I wait, wanting the ink to dry. I sit down as my body takes over, and slowly shut me eyes.
It's the time of year we all dread. I hope time slows down during these last weeks because I certainly need it. There's inspiration out there, but lately it hasn't been enough to motivate me. I can look at a randoms work and think 'oh wow that's mad' but my motivation on starting work isn't quite helping me through out this final week. I do not want to fail any subject. I'll get through it, all I have to do is stop thinking of what I might lose and just fucking start.
On the other hand. I've been thinking of my career choices. I still want to balance out performing arts & design. I can do it! I just have to work hard during this course. As soon as my braces are placed I'm told to send out my portfolio to talent agencies. There's no need to get my hopes up, I still have another year of design. yhatzzeeeeeeeeeee
Sometimes your alteration fascinates me. You walk into a room with all your thoughts baffled behind your head whilst talking yourself up. Where did the person I was talking to go? I can’t quite work you out. All this time I feel so comfortable around a dedicated mind. These labyrinths struck you so hard you can’t even answer the simple question you could’ve answered in your previous life. It might captivate you through these moments of self-bliss, but your no rank on what social ladder your trying to climb. For you it doesn’t hurt to keep trying right? Ignore those who deem your success, but re-think and recognize no one has pinned envy on you. With the gentle wind you fly through, seek for substance in your life and when your terrific wings get tired of carrying your pathetic stage. It’s most likely time for you to realise, your red carpet treatment was never for you. So when you wake up and appreciate the loss of your past being, it’s time to continue where you were supposed to be headed.
