I am 18 years old and I live in the Dallas/fort worth area in Texas. I have traveled all over America with my mother, from the east coast, to the west, from the north, to the south. I never stayed in a single area too long as i grew up. And my mother and father split when I was a toddler. I was Born in Mississippi, and from there, started moving to California, to Pennsylvania, to Illinois, to Virginia, sometimes visiting and staying for weeks up in New Hampshire, Vermont, and Maine. Then I finally moved to Texas when i was in 3rd grade after my mom met her current husband had my brother, while we lived in Virginia. Even in Texas I moved around quite a bit. While i was in Texas, and in elementary school, my mom had her 3rd child with her new husband and I was moved to 2 different elementary schools. At about the end of my 7th grade year, I moved to California to live with my real dad because I wasn't happy living with my mom and my step-dad, and I was always kept inside and didn't have much of a life. I live in Fresno, California with my real dad in a small apartment, in the ghetto. I lived there until the beginning of my high school years and had to move back to Texas with my mom because my father didn't have the money to support me, couldn't enroll me in school because we became homeless, and had a drug problem. When I started High school in Texas I was miserable because I wasn't given the chance to make friends before being thrown into high school and I didn't know anyone. So the first 2 years of my high school years I served as the "odd-ball-out" and was the classroom clown that was confused about how to deal with people. Then at the end of my sophomore year I began to grow up a bit and began to make friends. I made a whole new group of friends who I look back at now and laugh at because they were all a bunch of weird losers that thought they were the shit. Those kids are a joke to me now, but I'm glad I met them because it introduced me to a new life. When I started my junior year in high school I dropped all of my friends because I realized how drama filled and pathetic they are and met Allie. Allie and me thought the same way about almost everything and decided to keep everyone that went to our school of idiots out of our lives and sticked together. Then at after my 17th birthday my parents somehow were led to believe that if I'm 17 they legally don't have to provide for me and take care of me. So Allie's family took me into their home and helped me out. While I lived with Allie I got a job at a local Subway and began to hang out with a girl named Casey, who I met a my sophomore year of high school. Casey had a boy friend who I wont name but me and him became best friends. Then, Casey and him began to introduce me to their group of friends and I began to get interested in promoting local bands in my area. My life at that time consisted of going to shows, selling merch for Casey's boyfriend's band, and parties in Flower mound. Then, at about the end of my junior year me and Casey's boyfriend decided to get our own apartment together. I lived with him all summer and my days began to consist of being an in between in Casey and his relationship, drinking heavily, going to his band's shows, and playing guitar hero. Then he went on tour and me and him had a quick falling out and I was forced to move back in with my parents. After I moved back in, I decided to leave the high school that I was going too, and began to attend an alternative school when I started my senior year. There I worked hard and fast to get out of high school and graduate early. I'm not going to lie, I did cheat a bit, but who didn't cheat when they were in high school! aha. Then I was living at home trying to get a job. While I was doing this I met Cody, and started to hang out with him from time to time. Then my parents told me that if I couldnt find a job in 2 weeks within walking distance they were kicking me out. Because I didn't have my vehicle or license, job hunting was made twice as hard. So my 2 weeks came to an end and my parents kicked me out. Fortunately, however, Casey's family was kind enough to take me in and help me out. This is where I am now. While I've been here, Casey has taught me how to drive and I passed my drivers test and got my license. Also while I've lived here I've become very close to my best friend now. Me and him now are planning to get our own apartment after my truck gets its inspection and I am able to get a job in Bedford. For now I'm simply waiting for everything with my truck to get in order and once it is, I'm out of this horrid town.
Thank you for sending me a friend request, James. =] I'm always dressed for them. haha Get it? Dressed for Friend Requests by Drop Dead, Gorgeous. haha Anyway, you're life story is very moving. I wouldn't mind being your friend. ;]
And when i say ended it all with my family i don’t mean it in the good way.
Actually, i mean it in the complete opposite. So.. I’ll just explain what happened.
So my truck’s battery died and wouldn’t hold charge anymore, so i talked with my parents about it and they said they would pay half of the cost for the battery. So Casey’s mom said that she would cover one half and they can pay the other. So she took me and got a battery, we installed it, and my truck is fine. That was 4 days ago from today. So today i called with the intention to surprise them with the fact that i cut all my hair off and to get the other half. so i called my step-dad and he said i couldnt have it till Friday. So Diane, Casey’s mom, told me to call my mom and talk to her about it. So i did. I called and my mom asked what i wanted right off the bat. I felt awkward so i said, "nothing what are you up too?" she said "nothing" and asked again what i wanted. So i gave the phone to Diane and she began explaining why I needed the money. I needed the money for gas so I could go to my job interviews. Then my mom went off on Diane and said something along the lines of your a bad mother and that the reason she took me in was because "she failed raising her own kids". Which isn’t true at all. Diane has shown me to be the one of the most caring, loving, and amazing mothers i have ever met. Diane hung up he phone on her after she said that. Then Casey called my mom back and I’m not too sure of what what said to her besides the fact that my mom had no right talking to Diane that way. Then she told Casey to go to hell and take me with her and hung up after i angrily took the phone from Casey. Then I decided that it was finally time for me to go to my mom’s house myself and confront her about it. When i got there i went up to the door and rang the door bell, after about 5 minutes of waiting my little brother answered the door and i asked if i could talk to mom, he said no, and that she had told him to not open the glass. door. Then after a bit of talking with my brother my mom finally came to the glass door. She immediately said she didn’t have money for me. So I said that i don’t want her money, then i walked up to the glass and said, "i came here so you can look me in the eyes and tell Me to go to hell" she looked surprised for a moment and called me dramatic. so i kept asking her calmly to come outside and talk to me. Then she started going off on how she spends SO much money on me with the one month of insurance she paid on the truck when i got it 2 weeks from today. I said "well if helping me out a little is so much of a problem to you then thats the real problem." then she finally stepped outside. The rest is a bit of a blur because of was so angry but i think i handled myself well. As much as i can recall is as follows:
Recently, I’ve come to realize a bit of good advice about life.
Even though it is hard to accept and practice, its the wise and smart way to look out on things.
I’ve learned that the people i am involving myself with now, not a few weeks ago, but now, are all trying to move forward in their lives. With whatever they are going through, and so am I. I realized that what really matters in life is to push forward, and to not let other small things that are involved in the ones around you bring you down. I’m beginning to realize that i do need the help of someone right now but i also know that with whatever that person is going through, i need to stay out of that person’s business if they don’t feel like they can be open with me. All that really matters right now, in my life, is getting back on my feet and starting to progress toward the future I’m dreaming of. In my relationships right now i need to be more focused on what i am doing and on making sure nothing that is happening with someone else is going to hinder and upset MY plans for the future. But as for any other drama that someone else is going through, I’m staying out of it. Even if it is hard to do when you care for that person so much. But i cant force myself into situations where I am not wanted. So I’m just going to stay out.
Right now all i need is a friend, a brother, a best friend, who I can go to when I need them and when they can come to me when they need me. But i know i cant force anything, so I’m not going to. All i want is that friend who I can grow close too... And not lose that friend in the end... Someone who i can tell anything to and they’d accept it, and someone who can tell me anything and I can accept it. Someone who wont feel like they have to lie, bullshit, and hide things from me. Thats all i ask for.
(This is actually a letter I wrote to my grandma up in Maine.)
"well i see mom hasn’t disclosed to you much on what they did to me a few weeks ago.
as you know i turned 18 in December and i graduated from high school a semester before i was supposed too.
i still didn’t have my license, but i did get a truck for Christmas.
when January began they started to pressure me into getting a job so i walked to all the places around my house and applied where i possibly could. (because i still couldn’t drive)
Jimmy told me if i didn’t have a job around that area in 2 weeks they were kicking me out. i dyed my hair all one color and took out my lip piercings for the interviews. But none of the places around where I lived were hiring.
So they say since I’m now 18 and they "legally" don’t have to support me anymore they wont. they told me that their dogs have more right too be in their house then I do, because all I am is a mooch. But i didn’t have a car and couldnt get a job just anywhere. I did all i could but they still kicked me out (still with no license and no one making an effort to teach me how to drive so i could take my test) and they accused me of not trying to get a job at all even though i would leave for hours and i would walk everywhere i could and filled out applications. But luckily for me I have amazing friends who took me into their family and taught me how to drive and are helping me get back on my feet. I passed the written portion of the drivers test and on Tuesday I’ll pass the actual driving test and I’ll get my license.
